It was you who kept staring at me during the o-levels preparation night study.
It was you who started all these first by posting 'OOH, so you're Cassandra. Ok now at least i know who you really are.' on my Facebook wall.
It was you who asked for my email for msn and after that, my handphone number.
It was you who said 'You need an arm at your shoulder' and 'I think my arm fits perfectly on it.', when my shoulder looks so empty in a photo.
It was you who said 'You are the only one consoling me.', when you had to go Malaysia alone to take care of yr grandmother.
It was you who said that 'You are pretty', when I said 'I am not that pretty.'
It was you who said 'Really want to see you as it had been too long'
When u posted some phrase on Facebook showing that you were sad, I was the one to comfort you and said 'You can bear and keep everything to yourself. You can even put on a mask in front of others but what you are doing is just hurting yourself even more. I can't do anything if you choose to be like this. It's your choice anyway. I guess I'm just not important to you. If I am, why are you hurting me by doing these to yourself?', AND...It was you who said 'Girl, I don't mean anything. I'm sorry if it really hurt you but that's who I am. No one knows me. My dear, you won't understand why I'm like this unless you're in my shoes. I don't want you to know too much about me because I don't want you to worry but I don't know if you would. I've benn through too many obstacles mentally and physically. I don't know why I have to or I'm just born to go through. But then, I won't let the girl I like to feel it.'
It was you who said that I could 'Meet you alone, anytime. Just call.'
It was you who said 'Need see first lo. Let you know bah.', when I at last, plucked up my courage to ask you out because you said 'I refused to meet you alone.'
It was you who said 'Play for me! I'll be there listening. I have time as long as you will play for me', when I started learning how to play a piano and that you have to wait very long before I can play it for you.
It was you who said 'I save the unique hugs and kisses for you!'
It was you who said 'Msg you whenever you want it', when I said 'I was wondering if you would msg me.'
It was you who said 'Cute. That's tempting know. If I'm there, you're gonna get a surprise back hug! You have to act on, hold my hand!', when my neighbour secretly took a photo of me standing and playing the keyboard. AND... It was you who said 'I'm really good in changing imagination to reality', when I said that you are really good in imagining.
It was you who asked me 'When are you giving me the opportunity and I am waiting.'
It was you who said 'Come on, tell me what's pestering you?', when I said that I couldn't sleep.
It was you who waited for me outside school till 8pm when you didn't even msg or tell me at all that you were waiting for me and I didn't even agree that I would meet you after school and that I just said 'see first' when you asked me 2 days before that day. How am I suppose to know that you were waiting for me when I haven even agree? And you were waiting for me at the bus stop opposite the bus stop that I take to go home. And if you waited for me till 7 plus already and I still didn't turn up, why didn't you msg me?
It was you who said 'I waited because I wanted to, thinking that you will know that I am waiting for you.'
It was you who told me 'Anytime girl, just give me a call.'
It was you who said 'Hardly go see other's profile...Give you some attention mah.'
It was you who said 'I'm always free' and that you remembered that my favourite colour was Purple when I forgotten that your favourite colour was White.
It was you who said 'You should have stayed in MOE so that I can have a mate to study with.', when I changed my CDS from MOE to Intro to project management.
I told you before that I am not a girl who can go out often and you knew it. But one day, you said 'I need someone to come out. Don't like staying at home.' But what can I do? I told you before already right?
It was you who said 'It's okay, Your decision' when I said 'Shy leh' when you asked 'Can I fetch you at 7 from school?'
It was you who said 'You just have to someday. Set the time right before it goes off.', when I said 'Don't know why still can't make myself to meet you alone till now. I'm sorry. I guess I just can't get the courage to meet you.'
It was you who said 'A good girl loves a naughty boy.'
It was you who encouraged me and said 'It's not unlike you. Put it this way, you are smart but they are smarter.', when I said 'My brothers are so smart, unlike me.'
It was you who said 'I'm just waiting for you to meet me.'
It was you who said 'Never leh! I confirm go down IF you say you wanna meet up.', when I said 'You forget about me.'
It was you who insist on fetching me from school and that you are free when I said not to as it would be troublesome for you to come school again when I take only a few minutes to get home and that you will also spend a lot of time.
It was you who said that you like straight-forward people and you don't like to guess what people are thinking. But when I said 'Be straight forward', it was you who said 'I don't have to say it out. You know what I'm expecting.'
When you were sick and refused to eat and even, see a doctor as you felt that it is a waste of money and it was still bearable, I sms-ed you everyday to ask about your condition. You don't know how worried and concern I am for you.
Once, I saw you boarding the same bus as me on bus 22 and I didn't tell you till I reached home. It was you who said 'Ask also useless, I'm already at home. No point asking when our eyes don't meet.', when I asked you 'Why you never ask me where I saw you?' I wanted to say 'hi' to you after we alighted, but you were walking so fast that I couldn't catch up with you.
It was you who said 'A small birthday card with wishes is good enough what. Your friend gonna be happy then.', when I made a big birthday card for one of my friend. I told you 'It is because he made me a card on my birthday too and he's a super awesome friend', but you said 'Ooh sweet. Good for you then.'
It was you who said 'There's no fun without a girl's companion.', when I said 'Hope you have a happy 11/11/11!'
It was you who said 'I'm not at home. Tomorrow help you?', when I asked you maths questions that I do not know, but you forgotten to teach me the next day.
It was you who said 'I LOVE IT', when I told you my whereabouts.
It was you who said 'Imma bad boy.', when I called you 'Good boy!' when you said that you were going do homework.
It was you who comforted me and said 'Don't cry la aiyo... Not your problem mah, just stay out of it. Wash your face! This kinda thing, you're not suppose to cry for. Don't think too much, it's over.', when I cried because of some family matters.
It was you who said 'What you mean by nonsense? This is experience.', when I said 'Thanks for bearing this nonsense of mine.'
When your girl friend want you to choose stuff for her boyfriend, you said that you don't have good taste when I said that you were such a good friend. You said 'She trust my taste, up to her lo' when I said 'Then you still can help her choose. Means you still got taste mah.' But you don't know how I feel deep inside me.
It was you who said 'I miss my phone msg tone!', when I was going Sunway Lagoon for 3 days 2 nights. And... when I came back, you said you knew that you were the first that I sms-ed because 'I'm the most important person to you mah!'
It was you who said 'So cute xia you!', when I described my action and reaction when I dropped my phone in the bus. And... When I asked you why, you said 'The way you talk and the way you're embarrassed' makes me cute.
It was you who said 'There's a word in my dictionary call wait.'
It was you who said 'Next time go home with me better still', when I said 'We also end school different time.'
It was you who said 'Depends on how I waste it lo.', when I said 'You got so much time to waste ar?'
It was you who said 'I buy redbull go yr block give you.', when I said that I was tired in class.
It was you who said 'Waiting for you to step in the reserve slot in my heart mah. Very special, at the core of my heart.'
It was you who said 'Weak girl! You need a strong man!', when I said 'My arms and shoulders pain' after carrying so many books to school.
It was you who said 'That's my girl!', when I said 'You're my sweetest candy.'
It was you who said that '11:10 I grabbed down every single star out there.', when I said '11:11 Wish upon a star!' And... when you sms-ed me in the afternoon the next day, you said 'Just woke up! Hard work leh grabbing the stars, so sleep more.' It was you who said 'One! I found the one that represents your heart.', when I asked you 'How many stars have you grab for me?'
It was you who always said 'You really can't catch up with my nonsense/joke' and 'I'm filled with nonsense, that's what I'm good at, bring laughter.'
It was you who said 'Not bad, my girl is changing!', when I said 'Lots of more first time for you to find out!'
It was you who said 'Ok! As long as you would.', when you asked me out to exercise together, I said 'Next time bah.'
It was you who said 'Ya, think of you too much! Imagine how sweet you're dreaming' when you couldn't sleep the whole night, and I said 'Think of me ar?'
It was you who said 'Don't so harsh ah! My mouth not sweet to just any girls leh!', when I said 'Sweet talk again. Never think of me right?'
It was you who said 'Don't care.', when I said your girl friend likes you.
It was you who said 'Aiyo baby aware of my doings!', when I stalked you on Facebook.
It was you who said 'You bored can always msg me.'
When you said 'Go beach with me ah! Damn relaxing! Love it. Beach must at night go then you will feel it, very unique feeling.' It was you who said 'Holidays I working...', when I said 'During the holidays?'
It was you who said 'I'm msging a girl that I rarely see, that's weird' and 'I hardly see you in school but we msg like we're so damn close.'
It was you who said 'I rather see you everyday' and 'See you much better than msg, at least can interact face to face.'
It was you who said 'Msg really boring.' However, after that you said 'No la, just wanna see the person I always msg with', when I said 'Wah, feeling boring already ar.'
It was you who said 'I LOVE YOU' first.
It was you who said 'I am beautiful.'
It was you who tried to joke with me by asking me 'Honestly speaking, do you have a crush on me now?' And I replied 'If I don't, why would I msg you everyday or even so concern about you?' And you joke by saying 'Okay don't love me anymore. I got someone else I like. Sorry.' Although you were just joking, you don't know how upset I was at that point of time when I saw the msg.
It was you who said 'My msg brightens your day.' and 'I know someone waiting for my msg.'
It was you who said 'Don't you feel good when someone's missing you?'
It was you who said 'Nvm chat in your dream. Think of me before you sleep!', when I was going to sleep and you just woke up.
It was you who said 'I love it!', when I said 'I think of you before I sleep.'
It was you who said 'My girlfriend don't need scared of me staring at girls.'
It was you who said 'You dare come sit beside me, I confirm happy!'
It was you who said 'Next time see you with your friends sitting down again, I confirm go there say I'm your boyfriend!'
It was you who said 'It's not about the appearance, it's about who you are.'
It was you who said 'Good girl.'
It was you who said 'Help me say happy birthday father-in-law!', when it was my father's birthday.
It was you who said I'm 'sibei cute.'
It was you who said 'Baby bragged about me to her friends! How would a girl as shy as you brag about things?'
It was you who said 'Hao la Hao la', when I said 'I ask my neighbour accompany me to meet you.'
It was you who said 'Seriously cannot tolerate you, damn cute!'
It was you who said 'Ooh ok, my bad!', when I said 'Thinking of you... Thinking why you never msg me... Waiting for your sms...'
It was you who said 'Don't stress uh! Study hard then holiday play hard!', when I am stress doing my homework or studying.
It was you who always say 'Waiting for you!'
It was you who said 'You tried your best, no worries! Don't compare yourself with others.', when I didn't do well for my test. AND... It was you who said 'Aiya enough! Stop! You did your best! That's good enough!', when I continued feeling upset.
It was you who said 'Sleeping then msg me?! Cannot like that know?!', when I always msg you just saying Goodnight.
When you started to know your girl friend likes you, you said 'I only heard from my classmates that she likes me.' and you both were close.
It was you who said 'Don't know? You think so?', when I said 'That girl must be pretty!' and when I asked you if she was pretty.
It was you who said 'You also think so? Ok that's weird...', when I said 'I also know she likes you.'
It was who said 'Because you think so.', when I asked 'Why weird?'
It was you who said 'No wonder you're jealous.', when I said 'Makemejealousonly', 'Dunmakemejealousla', 'I think and feel that way too.' But you don't know how upset and uncomfortable I feel when you told me a girl likes you.
It was you who said 'I need a March baby', when I said 'I'm an August baby.'
It was you who started calling me 'Sweetheart, dear, darling, baby.'
AND ONE DAY, YOU SEND ME A MSG THAT SAYS "SORRY, LET'S JUST BE FRIENDS. I APPRECIATE YOUR CONCERN AND CARE FOR ME BUT I THINK THINGS WON'T WORK OUT THIS WAY. BUT ONE THING FOR SURE, MY CARE IS STILL HERE. I DON'T WANT YOU TO GIVE FALSE HOPE ANYMORE, PLEASE UNDERSTAND." What can I say when I saw this msg??? I can only just say 'ALRIGHT.'
It was you who waited for me for so long before I agreed to be with you and now, you decided to leave me after chasing me for so long.
It was you who started all first and now you decided to end it! When I just started saying 'I love you too, every minute, every second!!!', you decided to leave me and end everything.
You have already waited so long since before the O-levels and now, you decided to leave me.
I guess you have waited too long, that is why your feeling for me is gone and it can longer be found.
THIS CAN ONLY PROVE THAT THIS IS NOT TRUE LOVE BECAUSE TRUE LOVE WON'T BE GONE JUST BECAUSE OF TIME.
♥那些年, 你在追的女孩♥
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